To worry or not to worry

I haven't left my house since Thanksgiving.

Friday it was planned that way and we accomplished so much, I have the full garbage can in the garage to prove it. Plus the snowmen found their way out of the Christmas bins and the holiday season has officially reared it's decorated head in my house. No tree yet, but that will probably come tonight. The girls just aren't being as patient as I had hoped, and the neighbors have 2 trees taunting my children from 2 different windows in their house across the street.

Saturday I showered and had good intentions to go out but then Ryann had a friend sleep over and I didn't feel like hauling 3 girls out of the house, so I didn't. That night I woke up feeling awful, and proceeded to make several trips out of bed and yesterday I was just blah. So again, I didn't leave the house.

The thing is, I don't really feel like leaving the house today either. Ryann is at school and Jayden actually slept in so I kept her home today. Really I kept her home so I wouldn't have to drive her to daycare. So now I'm wondering, am I just under the weather and recovering from the last 2 months or am I simply depressed? How many days in your house (I am productive here, not sitting on the couch with bon bons) is acceptable before you have to wonder if there is a problem?

Since the moment I gave notice at my job on October 6th my life has been a whirlwind of emotion. Ups, downs, highs, lows, for a variety of reasons. Maybe I'm just recovering. I have been looking for and applying for jobs online, my house is clean, so who cares if I'm ignoring the need for fresh air? I really have no idea of the last time I spent 3 going on 4 full days in my house. I'm not sure if I have ever done it, even after my girls were born. Maybe I'm just overthinking it all and it's just part of my "process". I'm really starting to hate that word :)

I do feel the call of Starbucks, so maybe a trip to Target is unavoidable today. Of course there is a new drive-thru Starbucks in town, I wouldn't even have to get dressed for that.