I think I've made it. I have made it through my "process".
Today is the four week anniversary of my unemployment. During that four weeks I have cried uncontrollably, spent the entire day in bed, questioned every decision I've ever made in my life, lost 10 pounds, and basically convinced myself I was completely insane. But I think, yes I think, that all that was normal.
Aside from exhaustion, well not really exhaustion just a basic need to go to bed much earlier than I used to, I now feel really good. I feel that I have my life back, or rather, I feel like I am in control of my life and that my life is under control. I have accomplished things I have been waiting years to do and the only big thing left on my to do list (besides all this Christmas hoopla) is to print almost 2 years worth of digital pictures.
I haven't had to sell all my worldly possessions yet, but I have made some fun money on ebay and Craig's List. It has been enough to keep me in mochas a couple of days a week. I have been able to eat dinner around 6 instead of 7:30, and I have actually been able to prepare said dinner on many occasions. I am home when my daughter gets off the bus, no one has run out of underwear, and most importantly, and despite our drop in income, my stress level has dropped significantly.
I feel that 2009 will be a great year for me. Going back to when I started this blog I think I knew that 2008 was going to be interesting to say the least. But I am going into 2009 with a clear perspective and with dreams to fulfill. And for now I don't think I am broken anymore.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
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Yes, I think that is all normal. Our mental health is just as important as physical, and you do what you have to do to keep a healthy balance. I understand it. I am going through a similar thing, but people that have never gone through it will never understand! What you did is a healthy, strong thing. People that stay in a job that is making them crazy are the weak ones, because they are not able to take risks. I am ready to go back to work and try to stay healthy mentally and physically. I support you no matter what you decide.
Oh Stacy I'm so happy that you're feeling so good! You've worked really hard for a long time and you really did need to do this. I think 2009 is going to be your year and I look forward to hearing all about it. ((hugs))
Is it sad that I LIKE working at Meijer? Sigh,
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